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NY SAMUEL TODD: Missing from Manhattan, NY - 1 January 1984 - Age 24

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  1. Akoya

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    Todd vanished after stepping out of a New Year's party for fresh air. He was last seen walking near Mulberry and Houston Streets in Manhattan, NY on New Year's Day 1984. Sam left his wallet and jacket at the party. He had no cash and no identification on him.

    Investigators believes Sam is suffering amnesia from a hit on the head. Several persons, including one at the city-operated Men's Shelter in the Bowery, claim they saw Sam wandering in the area after his disappearance. A worker at the Men's Shelter told police he saw Sam, lean and hungry, eating soup. A day later, someone spotted a thin man with blond hair washing car windows on a street in Greenwich Village.

    Todd was a clergy student at the time of his disappearance.


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    https://www.namus.gov/MissingPersons/Case#/5354/details

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    Missing Person / NamUs #MP5354 Samuel Arthur Todd, Male, White / Caucasian

    Date of Last Contact January 1, 1984
    Missing From New York, New York
    Missing Age 24 Years
    Current Age 59 Years

    Case Information

    Demographics
    Missing Age 24 Years
    Current Age 59 Years
    First Name Samuel
    Middle Name Arthur
    Last Name Todd
    Nickname/Alias Sam

    Sex Male
    Race / EthnicityWhite / Caucasian
    Height 5' 10" - 6' 0" (70 - 72 Inches)
    Weight 130 - 145 lbs

    Circumstances
    Date of Last Contact January 1, 1984
    NamUs Case Created March 8, 2010

    Last Known Location Map
    Location New York, New York
    County New York County
    Circumstances of Disappearance Sam disappeared on New Years Eve after stepping out of a New Year's party for some fresh air. He was last seen walking near Mulberry and Houston Streets in Manhattan, NY. Sam left his wallet and jacket at the party. He had no cash and no identification on him.

    Physical Description
    Hair Color Brown
    Head Hair Description light brown
    Left Eye Color Blue
    Right Eye Color Blue
    Eye Description Sam wears eyeglasses
    Distinctive Physical Features
    Scar/mark
    Sam has two small scars on his cheek near his left eye

    Clothing and Accessories
    Clothing
    Sam was last seen wearing a dark blue sweatshirt with a circular emblem of Ecolint Geneve stitched across the front and blue jeans

    Eyewear
    Sam was last seen wearing dark-framed eyeglasses

    Footwear
    Sam was last seen wearing blue running shoes

    Investigating Agencies
    CASE OWNER
    New York City Police Department
    (212) 694-7781
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    Case Contributors
    Lori Bruski, Regional Program Specialist
    UNT Center for Human Identification
     
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    http://www.doenetwork.org/cases/78dmny.html

    The Doe Network:
    Case File 78DMNY


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    Samuel Arthur Todd
    Missing since January 1, 1984 from Manhattan, New York City, New York County, New York
    Classification: Endangered Missing

    Vital Statistics
      • Date Of Birth: June 12, 1959
      • Age at Time of Disappearance: 24 years old
      • Height and Weight at Time of Disappearance: 5'11; 135 pounds
      • Distinguishing Characteristics: White male. Light brown hair; blue eyes. Todd wears eyeglasses.
      • Medical Conditions: Todd may be suffering from amnesia and may not know who he is.
      • Marks, Scars: Two small scars on cheek near left eye.
      • Clothing: Last seen wearing a dark blue sweatshirt with a circular emblem of Ecolint Geneve
        stitched across the front; blue jeans; blue running shoes; and dark-framed eyeglasses.
      • Dentals: Not available
    Circumstances of Disappearance
    Todd vanished after stepping out of a New Year's party for fresh air. He was last seen walking near Mulberry and Houston Streets in Manhattan, NY on New Year's Day 1984.
    Sam left his wallet and jacket at the party. He had no cash and no identification on him.
    Investigators believes Sam is suffering amnesia from a hit on the head. Several persons, including one at the city-operated Men's Shelter in the Bowery, claim they saw Sam wandering in the area after his disappearance. A worker at the Men's Shelter told police he saw Sam, lean and hungry, eating soup. A day later, someone spotted a a thin man with blond hair washing car windows on a street in Greenwich Village.
    Todd was a clergy student at the time of his disappearance.

    Investigators
    If you have any information concerning Todd's case, please contact:
    New York City Police Department
    1-212-694-7781


    Agency Case Number: KNMP00061

    NCIC Number: M-113959440
    Please refer to this number when contacting any agency with information regarding this case.

    Source Information: New York City Police Department
    Yale Bulletin
    Yale Divinity School
    CA DOJ
     
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    He was last seen walking near Mulberry and Houston Streets in Manhattan, NY on New Year's Day 1984.

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    He was last seen walking near Mulberry and Houston Streets in Manhattan, NY on New Year's Day 1984.

    The north corner of where Houston Street meets Mulberry and Broadway in New York City

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    https://www.muckrock.com/foi/new-yo...ng-persons-file-for-samuel-arthur-todd-24406/

    NYPD Missing Persons File for Samuel Arthur Todd

    J.K. Trotter filed this request with the New York City Police Department of New York City, NY.

    03/14/2016

    Subject: None

    Mail
    To Whom It May Concern:

    Pursuant to the New York State Freedom of Information Law (1977 N.Y. Laws ch. 933), I hereby request the following records:

    A copy of the New York City Police Department’s missing persons file for an individual named Samuel Arthur Todd (DOB: June 12, 1959). Todd was reported missing on January 1, 1984 in Chinatown, Manhattan. The case has been previously reported by the news media:

    http://www.nytimes.com/2002/12/29/nyregion/new-york-observed-without-a-trace.html

    The requested documents will be made available to the general public, and this request is not being made for commercial purposes.

    In the event that there are fees, I would be grateful if you would inform me of the total charges in advance of fulfilling my request. I would prefer the request filled electronically, by e-mail attachment if available or CD-ROM if not.

    Thank you in advance for your anticipated cooperation in this matter. I look forward to receiving your response to this request within 5 business days, as the statute requires.

    Sincerely,

    J.K. Trotter


    03/25/2016

    Subject: None

    Mail
    The request has been rejected, with the agency stating that the information or document(s) requested are exempt from disclosure.

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    http://yaledisappearance.blogspot.com/

    SAM TODD: FUGITIVE FROM GOD, COUNTRY, AND YALE? by Paul Keane

    (This article, about the disappearance of Yale Divinity School student Sam Todd, first appeared in the May, 1985 issue of Connecticut Magazine. It is excerpted and adapted from a longer report which I wrote and submitted to the President of Yale University, the Dean of the Divinity School and the parents of Sam Todd.) Paul Keane

    * The Disappearance of Sam Todd


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    "The Man with a Thousand Faces"
    New York City Police

    Yale Divinity student Sam Todd left a party in the early morning of New Year's Day, 1984 ---and has never been seen or heard from since. Perhaps, suggests the author, who here offers fresh insights into the case, Sam had some very good reasons for disappearing.

    Connecticut Magazine
    May, 1985



    Paul Keane, a 1980 graduate of Yale Divinity School, is a New Haven-based free-lance writer. This article is excerpted from a longer report submitted to the President of Yale University, the Dean of the Divinity School and the parents of Sam Todd.

    Many of his acquaintances and friends at Yale Divinity School agree that Sam Todd was a shy young man. Some say “painfully shy”, others say “socially awkward”, some say “a loner.” His friend Phil Olmstead, who walked guard duty with him on two nights a week, calls Sam a “supernumerary person--- an outsider looking for his place.” Sam was very quiet, looked down a lot, and often expected you to understand what he was thinking with by a hand gesture. His favorite was a revolutionary first thrust in the air; another was a drum rim, the final flourish with drumsticks in a drum performance. Sam was an accomplished jazz drummer, but no one at YDS knew it until he happened to mention the fact one day in his second year at school. One of Sam’s teachers at YDS, who also knew him socially outside of the classroom, says he “found Sam to be spacey and scattered”. But most of Sam’s friends describe him as “particularly solid and stable” ---not someone who would suddenly run off and go into hiding.

    Friends and family acknowledge that Sam was probably drunk at the Mulberry Street New Year’s Eve party that night. It was his and his younger brother Adam’s third stop on a party hop, and Sam had been drinking beer and vodka. He went downstairs from the Mulberry Street loft to get some air. Adam went down with him and joshed him a bit about his condition as he tripped on the stairs on the way out. Sam was dressed entirely in blue: jeans, running shoes and a sweatshirt with the emblem and the school name “Ecolint Geneve.” Though the temperature had vacillated between 17 and 37 degrees that first day of 1984, he had left his coat with his wallet and identification back at the party. Sam broke into a mock jog to prove to Adam that he was OK as he headed up Mulberry toward Houston Street. Adam went back into the party, had second thoughts five minutes later, and went to look for Sam.

    No one able to identify him has seen Sam since he turned onto Houston Street around 1:30 that morning. He was the first missing person report of New York’s new year, a year in which the city was to receive over 16,000 such reports.

    Adam called his oldest brother John, then a law student who lived in Hoboken, New Jersey, at about 4:30 A.M.. John drove into New York and the two brothers began calling hospitals and friends of Sam’s around the city. They also went to their Aunt Doris Todd’s apartment in the Village, thinking that Sam might have stopped there, as he often did when he stayed in town. At around 11:00 A.M., they went to the police and filed a missing person’s report.

    By the weekend, about 20 of Sam’s friends from Vassar (his undergraduate school) were involved in the search, joined by another 29 friends from YDS. A week later, Adam and John had set up a “command headquarters” with five telephones in a Greenwich Village church and coordinated nearly 200 student volunteers from Yale Divinity School, Vassar, Princeton and elsewhere to distribute 20,000 “Missing” posters around Manhattan. Sam’s childhood friend, David Marcus, a staff writer for the Miami Herald, joined the search and wrote an article about Sam’s disappearance on the front page of the Herald on January 10. The next day, a quarter page article on the disappearance and search appeared in The New York Times, with photos of Sam’s father and two brothers at the Greenwich Village “headquarters.” The national television and radio media picked up the story of the search, and the baffling case was the lead-off in The New Yorker’s “Talk of the Town” column on February 13. Within the next nine months, the family had organized among friends and contacts a “Sam Search” committee in every state in the country. If Sam Todd had disappeared intentionally January 1 and was having second thoughts, soon thereafter, that maybe he should quietly resurface, the clout of this publicity may have sent him underground by January 11.

    No one could believe he ran away, at first. His on-and-off girlfriend from his days at Vassar, Jill Tonelli, was quoted in the Times as saying “He loves his family too much for that.” The fact sheet his family circulated about him says, “It seems clear his disappearance was not deliberate or premeditated.” But seven months later, his parents’ thank-you letter to the divinity school volunteers modifies that position: “Is he pursuing an agenda of his own which no one can guess?” it asks.

    If Sam Todd did run away, where could he have hidden against the odds of 20,000 posters with photographs, national news coverage, and a couple of hundred volunteers scouring the soup kitchens, shelters, bus, train and subway stations, and hospitals of Manhattan? Had he secured a new passport and spirited himself back to Geneva, Switzerland, where his family had lived from 1973 – 1977? Or to Zimbabwe, where, in 1980, he had worked in a school with revolutionaries who had laid down their guns?

    If he stayed stateside, even temporarily, where could he go where no one would ask questions about his past or think it strange that he did not volunteer such information or even give a full name? Where could he go where people would be reluctant to cooperate with the police in a humane undertaking like a missing person search?
     
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    Sam disappeared at Mulberry and Houston Streets, within short walking distance of Greenwich Village’s Christopher Street, the gay Main Street of the East. New York is the site of hundreds of Alcoholics Anonymous and Narcotics Anonymous meetings every week at all hours of the day and night. Sam could have successfully traveled in any or all of these circles unfound. No one would ask him for more than a first name, no one would think it odd that he did not want to talk about his past, and no one would cooperate with police inquiries about their membership. Indeed, even if persons in such places thought they were talking to a runaway, their allegiance would be to the group, not to the police or family on the hunt. After all, it is not a crime to run away. It is a private matter. Sam need merely have said, “Leave me alone.” Moreover, the 20, 000 posters distributed by his parents would not have helped much. One poster has six photographs of Sam, and he looks like an entirely different person in each photograph. The New York police refer to Sam as “the man with a thousand faces"
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    Sam's aunt, Doris Todd, who had lent money to Sam while his parents were living abroad, had sent her nephew a $2,000 check for a six-credit summer Hebrew course at YDS about May 15, 1983. The course cost $800. On July 15, Sam paid the Yale bursar’s office $2,330 he owed for the previous year’s tuition. Perhaps he saved the difference of $330 from his earnings at the Connecticut Food Bank, where he worked 20 to 30 hours a week. Clearly, he didn’t have money stashed away for a secret purpose when he returned to YDS in the fall. That semester, he was living entirely off a $2,400 grant from the school and an eight-hour-a-week job on the security patrol. His tuition was $3,150 for the first semester ’83-’84 and, as of October, 1983, Sam still owed Yale $750. Apparently, the entire grant went toward tuition. Sam was probably feeding and sheltering himself solely on funds from his $4-an-hour job. According to Sam’s classmate, Beau Weston, and his wife Sue, who rented Sam a room in their Orange street apartment, that was not enough to meet his payments to them, and early in December, the Westons had to sit down and have a talk with Sam concerning his late rent and grocery payments.

    Aunt Doris had also paid for Sam’s first year at Yale when he lived in Hopkins, a dormitory in the divinity school’s Sterling Memorial Quadrangle. She couldn’t understand why Sam didn’t ask her for money for his second year, when he also lived in Hopkins: “I was here with the money,” she says.

    Was pride involved in Sam’s reluctance to ask for help? Or did he want to live a more Spartan life? Many seminarians feel guilt (or at least what Sam’s security patrol partner Phil Olmstead calls “a cognitive dissonance”) about the comfort afforded them in the Edwardian drawing-room environment of Yale Divinity School, five blocks from the poverty of New Haven’s ghetto. Sam’s friend of 2 ½ years at YDS, Shep Parsons, says bluntly of Sam, “I definitely think he thought capitalism evil.” Paid for by the donations of the Rockefeller and Sterling families, Yale Divinity School’s campus could certainly be construed as a monument to capitalism.

    For the last 20 years, YDS has had a casual system of grading. At one point there were no grades at all. As one professor said, “There are three grades at the divinity school: Honors, High Pass and Pass. High Pass is what everyone gets.” The clear impression was that the screening process of the admissions committee was the major hurdle at YDS. If you got in, it was assumed you could do the work. Whether you would do it was another matter, hence the chronic abuse of unfinished course work by many students.

    The folklore had it that these relaxed characteristics of the school reflected the faculty’s awareness that, unlike other academic departments of the university, the divinity school requires students to deal on a daily basis, with questions of ultimate meaning in life and that they therefore need some of the pressures of grading and the academic calendar relieved. Carlton Erickson, president of Beecher and Bennett Funeral Home, which received suicide cases from Yale during the 1960’s and 70’s, recalls that a higher proportion of the suicides came from the divinity school than from other schools at the university. He offers as a layman’s analysis that the divinity school attracts the type of person who believes there are answers in an answerless world. Attitude toward the questions, not the questioning itself, causes the stress, in Erickson’s opinion.

    Beau Weston uses a quote from the Quaker leader Geroge Fox to describe Sam Todd’s attitude: “He was not a light and chaffy man.” Corrie Dinnean, Sam’s study-break conversation companion in the library in 1982, says Sam had “that driven quality in him another person would name anxious . . . He was in the process of becoming a radical Christian who was going to get at the core of things. He wanted to be more than a liberal Christian who was going to do Band Aid work. If he committed suicide, jumped in the water, it’s weird that the body hasn’t turned up.”

    When Todd began the fall semester, a notice was circulated to students from the director of studies, professor R. Lansing Hicks, that sent a chill through the student body. The catalogue for 1983-85 had included the possibility of “Failure” as a grade at YDS, but now, Hicks’ memo specified the faculty decision that “Incomplete” would automatically
    become “Failure” on the transcript if course work wasn’t finished according to YDS regulations and deadlines. (Prior to this, “Incomplete” remained permanently on the transcript if course work was not made up.) This was the first time in 20 years at YDS that the spectre of “Failure” hovered over a student’s official transcript if the student didn’t complete course work. Things were tightening up at YDS ----and many students panicked.

    When Sam left for Christmas break two weeks before he disappeared, he may have thought he was headed for academic probation in his final semester at YDS. Of the four courses he took first semester, his transcript indicates he had two “Incompletes” and a “Pass.” He surely knew he had the incompletes when he left for his break because he hadn’t finished the course work. But he may have feared that he had failed the course that he squeaked by with, with a “Pass,” for professors’ grades were not due in the registrar’s office until February 6. He had pre-registered for a extra –a fifth –course for his final semester, a heavy load even for someone who is not a procrastinator. Sam may have felt he couldn’t finish his two incompletes and keep up with five courses spring semester.

    Sam had another problem too: He couldn’t have completed the 72 credits needed for graduation in May on time. A previous “Fail”, an “Incomplete” and a “Dropped” left Sam six credits short of the 72 credits necessary to graduate., even if he had passed all of the five courses he had pre-registered for, for spring semester, and made up the two incompletes he had when he left for Christmas break.
     
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    The matter of ordination was another question. When Sam first came to the divinity school, “there was no talk of ordination”, Joan Forsberg, Associate Dean of Students at YDS, recalls Even in his second year, ’82-’83, classmate Corrie Dinnean recalls that Sam was talking about doing “ Ph.D, work”. It was “where he was headed in the Religious Studies Department.” (The Divinity School does not offer a doctorate; the Religious Studies Department does.) By the end of his second year, however, Sam’s own transcript must have told him that while he was capable of Ph.D. work, he wasn’t motivated enough to produce the kind of record that would lead to it: “Incomplete”, “Dropped” and “Fail” don’t augur well for entrance into any doctoral program. He evidently had decided to try for ordination by the summer of ’83 ---one doesn’t usually take six credits of Hebrew in summer school for fun. By the end of fall semester, just before he disappeared, even that plan was shaking at the foundations: his Greek professor told his New Testament professor before final exams that “if Sam doesn’t get his act together, he isn’t going to pass Greek.” Sam squeaked through, but he may not have known he had at the time he disappeared.

    Joan Forsberg had come aboard YDS in the early ‘70’s. She had been a classmate of Sam’s father George at the divinity school in the late 40’s and early 50’s and had kept in touch with George after he married and, later, when he and his wife, Kathy, moved to Geneva, Switzerland, where George sat on the desk of the Urban/Industrial Mission of the World Council of Churches. She recalls sitting around the grand piano in the YDS Common Room after dinners in the refectory, George Todd at the keyboard and a small group singing hymns. They are warm memories of a good era in the divinity school’s august history.

    It was the last days of what has come to be called the “golden era” at YDS. when faculty names like Niebuhr, Macintosh, Bainton, Weigle, Brown and Calhoun still rang through the halls and recollections were still vivid of the work of the Revised standard Version Committee, which sat for years at YDS making 5,000 emendations in the King James version of the Bible. Joan Forsberg and her husband visited the Todds in Geneva when Sam and his brothers were in their teens in the early ‘70’s. She recalls that when they stopped in, the Todds were waiting for a Philippine national from the church who was four days overdue and presumed missing. She recalls later hearing stories from the Todds about “refugees vanishing in Latin America.” The Todds themselves refer to this unique experience of persons vanishing, in their thank-you letter to the divinity students of August 1, 1984:

    As we keenly miss Sam and are baffled by the mystery of his disappearance, we are filled with a sense of the unpredictability of life and the absurdity of the way things can happen. We think about the tragic disappearances and separations occurring all over the world ---the many “disappeared” people (some of them known to us) in Latin America and other places. We think of the thousands of people whose lives are suddenly cut off by wars, natural disasters, accidents, illness and crime. From our place of relative comfort and security, we have a sharper sense of the suffering of those whose family members and friends are missing in much more dire circumstances.

    The reaction of Sam’s parents to those disappearances cannot have gone unnoticed by the sensitive young man Sam was becoming in Geneva. Sam saw firsthand exactly how much anguish such disappearances caused his parents, and he saw , too, that they did not shatter his parents’ theology. They coped, they carried on ---just as they have carried on since Sam’s disappearance.

    Sam Todd was born in 1959 in New York City and was moved the same year to Taiwan: in ’63 back to New York City; in ’70 he moved to Geneva, Switzerland, in ’77 he entered Vassar College in Poughkeepsie, N.Y.;and in ’81 he entered Yale Divinity School in New Haven. His summer jobs from ’78 to ’80 moved him from Martha’s Vineyard to Atlanta, Georgia, to Zimbabwe to San Francisco to Providence, R.I., to New Haven. In short, Sam himself may have felt like a homeless person, someone without roots. It is interesting in this regard that Shep Parsons, Sam’s friend in Bushnell dorm at YDS, recalls that when Sam lived in Hopkins, “he never bothered to unpack.”

    If Sam felt rootless or homeless geographically, he may not have felt so in terms of his identity in the world. He was named after his maternal grandfather, Samuel Franklin, a social activist, and watched his father’s own career as a social activist grow from the urban problems of a ministry in Harlem to the global problems of urban centers at the World Council of Churches. Sam played the piano as a child, a talent his father displayed at after-dinner hymn sings at Yale Divinity School. And, ultimately, he would choose to attend his father’s alma mater with an interest in his father’s vocational interests: urban ministry and the problem of third-world countries. Indeed, Sue Weston remembers that Sam had a plan to get married and have “an inner-city urban ministry in Newark, N.J.” Sam was not only walking in his father’s footsteps, but remaining in his father’s shadow. And the shadow cast from a desk on the World Council of Churches was a long shadow indeed.

    Sam is the third of four Todd sons, each spaced about two to three years apart. Even if the Todds had a full time governess, the realities of being a third born of four males so spaced apart cannot be denied: just as the first two are getting on their feet and demanding more attention, a fourth baby enters the picture making disproportionate demands. The third born in such a dynamic has a tendency to get lost in the shuffle.

    David Marcus, the Miami Herald reporter who grew up with the Todd boys, recalls that “when peace groups organized a candlelight vigil to protest the war in Vietnam, Kathy [Sam’s mother] shepherded us down to Broadway at night, treating us to buttons and bumper stickers and answering our non-stop questions about the moratorium. She took us to the first Earth Day rally, and to Rockefeller Center at Christmas.” Sam may not only have been vying with his brothers for his parents’ attention, but also vying with his parents’ social concerns for his parents’ attention.

    It may be significant, sadly, that when Sam first began planning to attend and actually matriculated at Yale Divinity School, one of his brothers began to develop debilitating emotional problems. Could it be that having pushed magic buttons for his parents’ attention (following in his father’s footsteps) Sam suddenly upset the equilibrium of the brothers’ vying process? Can it have escaped Sam’s notice subconsciously that the developing severity of his brother’s emotional problems coincided with his own journey toward and through Yale Divinity School? Could his refusal to complete that journey, by disappearing, have been a subconscious attempt to restore the equilibrium of that vying process, and perhaps thereby restore his brother’s emotional health? The central axiom of Tom Brown’s “Psychoanalysis, Parents and God” course at YDS is, “There are no accidents in the life of the mind.”

    Or, could the opposite have been the case, subconsciously: “Here I am pushing every magic button I know to get my parents’ attention and approval by following in my father’s footsteps, and my brother gets sick and commands the attention I want”? Evidence is that Sam’s cultivated altruism would never have permitted him to think such thoughts consciously. But the conscious life of the mind is a life which lets us 'but slenderly know' ourselves. Sam’s Aunt Doris believes that Sam would never have caused this hurt to his weakened brother. Jill Tonelli agrees that Sam “loves his family too much” to have just run off.

    Plaster saints sometimes crack.

    Everyone agrees on one thing: Sam cared about the poor and disadvantaged. “Poverty and destitution haunted him,” Corrie Dinnean says. “He wasn’t a person in narcissistic crisis ---‘will anyone love me, will I make enough money, will my children love me?’” He “didn’t grind at the core of his being about individualistic stuff.” Franklin Salisbury, a friend in Hopkins, remembers that Sam was “taken with political issues ---his studies seemed secondary. He went to Groton [to participate in the nuclear submarine protests for which Yale Divinity students have made a name for themselves in Connecticut]. The January 20 Miami Herald article by David Marcus reports that “nearly half of Yale’s 400 divinity students have helped the Todds since January 1, and more are joining every day . . ." "My sense is that there is something in Sam’s selflessness that causes people to do something for him when he’s in trouble,” Dean Forsberg said.
     
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    Perhaps Sam’s selflessness had something to do with it, but the divinity students’ own selflessness wasn’t their only motivation. Shep Parsons, a third year M. Div. candidate, had made a deal with Dean Keck for those persons participating in the search to be relieved of their deadlines for unfinished course work. Is that what burgeoned the divinity searchers to 200 persons? “It’s what got me down there,” Parsons admits. Ian Straker, a second year M.Div. candidate at the time, agrees. Ironically, relief from one of the pressures that could have caused Sam to run away in the first place may also have ballooned the very search which kept Sam from reappearing quietly if he had so desired. The national media attention was riveted as much on the magnitude and quality of the search as a story as it was on Sam’s disappearance.
    News reports cited Sam’s concern for others as manifest in his work at local soup kitchens and the food bank. Indeed, Sam did do paid work at the Connecticut Food bank the summer of ’83. Only one staff member at the Columbus House, a shelter for the homeless in New Haven, can remember Sam at all ----and then only as a volunteer one weekend for three days. Sam’s friend at YDS, Serene Jones, suggests that Sam volunteered at the Columbus House the one night a month that the divinity school students agreed to sponsor a meal for the Columbus House residents. Cynthia DeLouise, director of the Columbus House since its creation in 1981, doesn’t recollect Sam at all and can’t find his name on any records in the house’s files.

    In their thank-you letter to the divinity school, Sam’s parents refer to the Columbus House as “the shelter and soup kitchen Sam helped to found.” The divinity school graduating class of 1983 gave a gift in Sam’s name to the Columbus House at the time of graduation ---a graduation that Sam Todd had at one time planned to participate in. De Louise was "surprised and pleased” by the gift and purposely perused Columbus House records to find out who Sam Todd was. She found nothing. Staff currently at the Christ Church and Fairhaven soup kitchens also do not recall Sam, but acknowledged that staff turnover in the last few years may be partially responsible for their ignorance. Could it be that a post-disappearance mythology about Sam as a volunteer for the poor has expanded Sam’s selflessness beyond the data?

    Sam may have been selfless in a different way. Having grown up in a family of social activists, the language of selflessness may simply have been the only vernacular familiar to Sam, or available to express the unfolding personality and its overwhelming feelings during adolescence. This is not to denigrate the quality of Sam’s sincerity, but merely to observe that most of us sleepwalk out of our childhood, through adolescence into adulthood. Some of us awake gradually, others with a start or a fall.
    The vernacular was intense ---“the very core of his being” as Corrie Dinnean describes it. She would meet Sam often in the library “at the dictionary.” Sam and Corrie had a “meeting of the minds” on The Wretched of the Earth, black psychiatrist Franz Fanon’s 1961 psychoanalytic interpretation of the dynamics of colonialism in underdeveloped countries. Sam told Corrie, “We have to read this book,” and she remembers that after they did so, Sam’s copy was generously underlined in red, especially the preface by Jean-Paul Sartre. “If you want to understand Sam Todd,” Dinnean says, “read that book.” Sartre’s preface directs readers’ attention to Fannon’s rallying cry, “Natives of all underprivileged countries, unite! . . .Europe has her hands on our continents, and we must slash at her fingers until she lets go.” Sam’s fascination with this book may have as much to do with his past proximity to the World Council of Churches as it did with any radical Christian identity he might have been trying on for size at Yale Divinity School: last year, CBS News’ 60 Minutes reported accusations that the World Council of Churches had knowingly permitted its charity funds to wind up in the hands of third-world revolutionaries for the purpose of purchasing weapons.

    Sue Weston remembers that “Sam was someone who was impressed with the possibilities for revolution.” She acknowledges, too, that Sam was “ a brooder . . . someone who returns often to the same problem.” What problem? “South Africa, the collapse of the U.S., nuclear war,” Weston says. Sam’s heroes, she says, were Karl Barth, the back-to-fundamentals Protestant theologian of this century who began his career in Geneva, and the Rev. Charles Bannana, a Zimbabwean revolutionary who had laid down his arms. “Sam admired him because he was working for the right thing but wasn’t a revolutionary,” she says. Beau Weston recalls that the “political arguments” he and Sam would have always boil down to one thing ---“national politics vs. individual action ---the question was what was the level needed to get things done.”

    Shep Parsons tells of the “community art project” he had in his apartment the fall semester before Sam disappeared. It was a mural of sorts; each visitor to the apartment was asked to trace his or her hand on the wall. When Sam visited Shep, he traced his hand in the form of an upraised fist. It is the only upraised fist in the mural. Shep has thought about that off and on since Sam disappeared.
    Sam expressed “concerns about his psychological health” To Jill Tonelli at least once, according to Shep Parsons. This is nothing unusual, especially for someone who had seen emotional illness firsthand in his own family. Corrie Dinnean cautions that “the spiritual journey is very different from the psychological journey.” Using Christian terminology, she says, if you’re “in the dying and haven’t got to the resurrecting part yet, if you’re in that place, it’s very hard.”


    By the middle of fall semester there is evidence that a new feeling was creeping into Sam Todd’s personality, previously so grounded in the selflessness of global concerns for the oppressed. This feeling might be called the legitimacy of self. By November, when students were pre-registering for spring semester’s courses, Sam summoned the courage to try to share that new feeling with a professor on the YDS faculty. He had not had Professor North (a pseudonym) for any class, but a friend of Sam’s, knowing his troubled state of mind, recommended that he go see him. When Professor North unexpectedly introduced himself to Sam at coffee hour one morning, the ice seemed broken and Sam felt comfortable enough to later ask him for an appointment. (Sam didn’t know that Professor North had introduced himself intentionally, having heard from Sam’s friend that Sam was a “really troubled” young man.)

    When Sam arrived at Professor North’s office, late in the afternoon, he "looked like someone threatening to become ill” ---pale and emaciated. (Corrie Dinnean says Sam always looked this way ----“skinny as a rail, utterly white, like a disaster area.”) Sam’s manner was “diffident, not pushy.” Was he “spacey and scattered”,” as one of his classroom professors called him? “I had the impression he was not in full control,” says North. “It troubled me that he was not able to put his thoughts together on his own behalf . . . He was not suicidal or I would have pursued him.”
     
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    They talked for over an hour. Sam was fumbling for words, so North began the conversation, “Let me tell you how it is for a lot of us . . . We have difficulty putting religion together in the context of the world we live in . . .This isn’t unusual. It’s what some of the great teachers are about.” Professor North cited Kierkegaard’s putting himself together at 25.” Sam liked this.

    North was bothered that Sam seemed to have “no firsthand acquaintance with anything religious,” something from his own life, not that he’d “read in books.” He told Sam this, and Sam “didn’t react very well” to it. “I told him Christianity is a way of making sense of your life . . .He listened respectfully, thanked me, but didn’t respond.”

    Did Sam feel that his own altruism was phony? “yes,” thinks North. He wasn’t sure at all about the kind of religion he was caught up in, this social action bit. He thought it was as ‘flakey’ as other kinds of piety he’d been involved in, and that bothered him. " I had the impression he was quarreling with his father’s kind of ministry.” At times during the meeting, North had the feeling that Sam was “on the verge of cracking,” on the verge of tears. As they parted, Professor North assured Sam that it was not a bother for Sam to come to him this way. “I am a teacher, this is my job . . .We should meet again.”

    They did not meet again before Sam disappeared. North was not surprised by the disappearance. “Alcohol and running away fit into the picture,” as Professor North sees it. When Sam’s parents came to campus to speak to student groups helping in the search, Professor North was surprised by how upset they were by the disappearance. “”I wanted to tell them to cool it,” he says, but he didn’t. North did speak with Mrs. Todd, but told her only in the palest terms the nature of his meeting with Sam. It didn’t seem the correct moment to say more.

    Sam seemed relieved at one point during his meeting with Professor North: We were talking about the disciplined life and I told him that after Wittgenstein had read Kierkegaard, he commented, "If I am supposed to give up my whole life I can’t become a Christian, because I’ve never been able to give up a cup of coffee.” Sam brightened.

    Beau Weston points out that at the time he disappeared, Sam had just completed an exegesis paper for the New Testament on Luke 14, a passage which includes, among other verses, these two: “Go out quickly to the lanes of the city and bring in the poor and maimed and blind and lame” (14:21); and “If anyone comes to me and does not hate his own father and mother and wife and children and brothers and sisters, yes, and even his own life, he cannot be my disciple”(14:26). Professor North recalls that Sam “did say negative things about the church, but not his parents” in their meeting.
    A popular theory at the Yale Divinity School is that Sam is just off “seeing how the other half lives,” as Corrie Dinnean puts it , or doing research on the disadvantaged . “I like to think he’s traveling on trains and taking an inventory,” Dinnean adds. An interesting sidelight to this theory, and one which has not been previously noted, is the cover story of the February 21, 1983 New York magazine. Published eight months before Sam disappeared , the cover photo shows a handsome bum, in striking chiaroscuro, under the title, “Diary of a Homeless Man.” On the first page of the article we learn that the “bum” is John R. Coleman, the former president of Haverford College, now president of the Edna McConnell Clark Foundation, a philanthropy which aids the severely needy. The article begins with the “bum’s” first day journal entry on his experiment of living as a homeless person:
    Somehow 12 degrees at 6 A.M. was colder than I had counted on. I think of myself as relatively immune to the cold, but standing on a deserted sidewalk outside Penn Station with the thought of ten days ahead of me as a homeless man, the immunity vanished. When I pulled my collar closer and my watch cap lower, it wasn’t to look the part of a street person; it was to keep the wind out. My wardrobe wasn’t much help. I had bought my “new” clothes ---flannel shirt, baggy sweater, torn trousers, and cap and coat ---the day before on Houston Street for $9.
    Doris Todd had New York magazine in her home the months of the January – May semester,1983. Sam visited her once during that time for a weekend, and may have seen the February issue in question. Or he may have stumbled across it in New Haven or in Providence, where he visited occasionally. Could Sam have toyed with the idea of turning Coleman’s 10-day experiment into a book of his own adventures as a homeless man? It is a thought.—one Sam might have had himself on Houston Street that mild New Year’s morn as he jogged, tipsy, away from his brother Adam, and perhaps from his family’s God, country and Yale.


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    Did anything happen at the New Year’s party which could have made Sam run away? Was there an argument, say, between Sam and his girlfriend, Jill Tonelli? Quite the opposite, Beau Weston says; Jill had given Sam vibrations that the relationship was on again if he wanted it. Beau acknowledges this to be Jill’s interpretation after the disappearance. He says Sam had broken it off with Jill earlier in the year because “she didn’t want to be a minister’s wife.” Sam’s aunt reinforces Beau’s story. Sam, she says, had invited Jill to get together over vacation.

    Shep Parsons tells a different story of what he believes happened at the party. His story is based on things Sam’s brothers Adam and John told him after the disappearance, things which mesh with his personal knowledge of the difficulty Sam was having breaking up with Jill. Shep’s personal knowledge is that Sam was “trying to get rid of Jill” and was “glad it was over with,” but that she was “hanging on tenaciously.” Sam “felt so guilty . . . here was this woman who really loved him . . . he didn’t have it together enough to end it.” Shep recounts what Adam and John told him about the Mulberry Street party. “Sam was blown away because Jill was there and he didn’t expect it. Sam was trying to get out from under her.”

    Work and love: Freud says that a man who has conflicts in either or both of these areas can’t be happy. Sam appears to have had conflicts in both, conflicts between what he thought he ought to do, and what he actually wanted to do.
    The streets were filled with revelers on New Year’s morn. Could some of those revelers have been solicitors for a cult, entrance to which would have been an easy exit from society, if one wished to disappear? Saul Levine, in the article “Radical departures” (August 1984, Psychology Today), summarizing 15 years of his study of cults, says the type of person who joins a cult usually comes “right off the cover of the Saturday Evening Post.” One of Levine’s happier observations is that “more than 90 percent of these departures end in a return to home within two years, and virtually all joiners eventually abandon their groups.” Levine spells out his thesis: “In short, they use their radical departures to grow up.” In the town of Rajneeshpuram in Wasco, Oregon, the Rajneesh cult last winter was importing thousands of homeless men from around the country to bolster their membership and, some suggest, to influence local elections.
     
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    Another current theory, given the proximity of Houston Street to Greenwich Village’s gay community, is that some homophobic roughnecks, out for a joy ride on New Year’s Eve, spotted a lone walker on the street and decided to teach him a lesson, a fatal lesson, presuming that he must be gay. In repeating this theory which she heard at YDS graduation last year, Corrie Dinnean says she believes it is unlikely. She subscribes to the Police assertions that they’re usually pretty good at finding bodies –“Why wouldn’t they have found his body by now?” she asks.

    Another theory, one the police detectives have questioned Beau and Sue Weston about, is that Sam may have been gay and just decided to stop living a lie any longer by vanishing into the gay underworld. This theory would explain Sam’s apparent renunciation of ordination, and would supply a conflict of sufficient intensity to make running away understandable. It would also provide his parents an opportunity to make a safe harbor for his return by spreading the word that they are neutral or even hospitable to such a lifestyle choice and would welcome Sam back, regardless.

    But Shep Parsons says of Sam, I know he was not bisexual or gay,” and virtually all of Sam’s other friends agree. Of course, a person can lead a secret life or conceal his true feelings. And Sam’s propensity to take late night jogs (sometimes at 2:30 A.M.) provides a possibility for a clandestine life. But one would suspect that such a person would want to throw people off the track by avoiding gay persons in his everyday life, or perhaps even by acting outright homophobic. Sam did neither. He was benign on the gay issue and friendly with openly gay persons at YDS, even voicing his support to one of the gay leaders of YDS’s Gay/Straight Coalition, a support consistent with his interest in the oppressed.

    What about the mental breakdown theory? Sam’s parents apparently consider this a possibility; their search includes alerting mental hospitals. There is the matter of emotional illness in the family, and Sue Weston remembers Sam once talking about “the difficulty of talking to troubled people,” referring to the painful situation in his family. One would have to believe that by now ---16 months later ---such a person wandering the streets or occupying a bed in a mental hospital would have been identified, given the extraordinary nature of the publicity surrounding this search. But America is an enormous land, as anyone who has traversed it knows, and one more “space cadet” wandering the streets or hitchhiking across the highways could go unidentified for years. How many people can you describe accurately after walking down a pedestrian-filled street? And if one were an expert on the homeless, and on how they survive via soup kitchens and shelters, one might be able to so survive ad infinitumeven in a state of mental disrepair.

    What about loose ends? Sam’s aunt says he had invited friends to visit at his parents’ Chicago home over Christmas break and was planning on hosting them. Beau Weston talked by phone to Sam twice on New Year’s Eve, trying to get him to come to his own family’s home that evening. There was no indication of an emotional problem. Sue Weston says, “I know Sam was coming back. He promisedhe’d wash the dishes before he left, and he left the casserole dish soaking.”

    Sam Todd is still missing; that is the disturbing reality. If he was driven underground in terror of return after the sudden magnitude and rapidity of the search for him, has anything changed, to make his return easier? With the search lights so bright in the harbor, how could anyone slip quietly back?


    Sam’s file is still very active with the New York Police Department’s Bureau of Missing Persons, and his description appears on the FBI’s nationwide computer network. The Bureau has received hundreds of “sightings” of Sam from around the country ---each has been tracked down, checked out, so far to no avail. The most promising lead to date, a sighting by YDS student Marlene Gill, who believes she saw Sam near the Columbia School for Social Work in Manhattan in late September, is still being investigated. In recent weeks the Department has also been reviewing passport applications, in case Sam has decided to leave the country.May, 1985
     
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    http://charleyproject.org/case/samuel-arthur-todd

    Samuel Arthur Todd
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    • Missing Since01/01/1984
    • Missing FromManhattan, New York
    • ClassificationEndangered Missing
    • Date of Birth06/12/1959 (59)
    • Age24 years old
    • Height and Weight5'11, 135 pounds
    • Clothing/Jewelry DescriptionA dark blue sweatshirt with circular emblem that had "ECOLINT GENEVE" imprinted on the front, blue jeans, blue sneakers and a plastic Timex watch.
    • Medical ConditionsTodd may be suffering from amnesia.
    • Distinguishing Characteristics Caucasian male. Light brown hair, blue eyes. Todd wears eyeglasses with dark frames. He has a slim build. Todd's nickname is Sam. He has two small scars on his left cheek near his eye.
    Details of Disappearance
    Todd attended a New Year's Eve party with his younger brother and some friends in the New York City borough of Manhattan at Soho's Puck Building during the early morning hours of January 1, 1984. He walked out of the party for a moment at approximately 2:00 a.m. and disappeared.

    Todd was last seen walking in the vicinity of Mulberry Street and Houston Street in Manhattan. He left his wallet and jacket at the party and carried no identification or cash on his person when he vanished.

    He was drunk at the time of his disappearance and investigators believe he may have been assaulted and possibly struck on the head while walking that night. He may be suffering from amnesia as a result of his injuries.

    An employee at the Men's Shelter in the Bowery in New York City told authorities that a man resembling Todd's description was in the shelter's area days after Todd disappeared. The worker also stated that the individual had a meal at the shelter, while another witness said that the man was later seen washing car windows on a Greenwich Village street.

    Todd attended an international school in Geneva, Switzerland and is a 1981 graduate of Vassar College.

    He was a clergy student at Yale Divinity School at the time of his disappearance, and had passed the first round of qualifying exams for Presbyterian ordination. He had pre-registered for five courses for the spring semester, but he wasn't performing well academically and wasn't on track to graduate from Yale on time.

    Todd was interested in jazz music and in peace and justice issues in 1984, and he volunteered for several charities. He was born in New York City and lived all over the United States and in several foreign countries during his life, and he's described as streetwise. His case remains unsolved.

    Investigating Agency
    • New York Police Department 646-610-6914
    Source Information
     
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    https://www.nytimes.com/2002/12/29/nyregion/new-york-observed-without-a-trace.html

    NEW YORK OBSERVED; Without a Trace

    By HEATHER DUNE MACADAMDEC. 29, 2002

    IT was 1984, the night Sam Todd disappeared.

    He and his brother Adam were visiting our loft in Chinatown for the weekend. There were four of us, as well as a few semipermanent residents, who owned a space five flights above Canal Street that was as raw and unrenovated as our lives.

    We had not planned to have a New Year's Eve party to celebrate the advent of 1984. Instead, our plan was to go to other people's parties and leave our tracks all over downtown Manhattan. Then people started stopping by, expecting something, and so spontaneously we combusted. We were an eclectic group of geeks and artists, Vassar grads commingled with dropouts, summa cum laudes with experimental artists, all bound by the thrill of the night.

    It was our chance to usher in a year we had waited for ever since George Orwell's futuristic novel had become required reading in high school. We had ranted -- no, raved -- about the arrival of this year, touting it for its promise, as if 1984 was guaranteed to be a wonder marked on memory's calendar.

    In 1983, everyone was hoping that on the stroke of midnight some miracle of society would change the world forever. We hadn't forgotten that Orwell's novel portrayed a science fiction nightmare -- we were all too aware of the possibilities that technology was already providing our culture -- but it was the first important New Year's for us. Young, full of hopeful delusions, despite fiction's prophecies, we kissed, sent firecrackers sailing off the rooftops, danced beneath David Bowie's hypnotic chant ''1984'' and had absolute faith in our futures. We believed in ourselves and who we were going to become one day, as soon as we grew up.

    Then Sam Todd went for a walk around the block and never came back.

    Ever.

    Sam Todd's face is still on the New York Police Department's Missing Persons list: you can see him on the Internet (http://www.ci.nyc.ny.us/html/nypd/html/missing/sam--todd.html) along with the 60 or so other long-term missing persons whose cases the department still tracks.


    ''Every three months or so, the long-term case team runs computer searches through the N.C.I.C.'' -- National Crime Information Center -- '' for anything that might be close to one of our cases,'' said Lt. Brian Burke, a department spokesman. ''It's not easy. We don't know the ending either. Closure is rare.''

    Their images hover on the Web page like unknowing ghosts.

    The picture of Sam is not a good one. The cleancut, bookish clergy student is there, but the whimsy of youth is absent from his face. The Web site says he was 24, weighed 135 pounds and had blue eyes, but you can't see the things that matter, like his love of jazz.

    You can't see the boy I knew so briefly, leaping over parking meters as we walked to 271 Mulberry Street, where another New Year's Eve party was still raging. You can't see the way he twirled like a young colt, laughing and eating up the energy of the night until he was so dizzy he had to leave me on the dance floor to spin alone while he went outside for a breath of air. It was 3 a.m. when Sam went for his walk.

    An hour later, I was still spinning when Adam told us that Sam had not returned. Bryan Ferry sang, ''Now the party's over'' above our heads.

    We spent the rest of the early-morning hours walking the streets of Chinatown and SoHo calling out Sam's name, trying to get him to come home. At first it was funny. We thought he had gone to another New Year's fete on Broadway, and we headed that way. Passing an open door banging in the wind, I grabbed the handle and leaned inside to call Sam's name. A wintry gust grabbed me and swung me inward, until I was hovering over the abyss of an elevator shaft.

    Someone grabbed my arm and pulled me back to safety. We stared into the cellar, our voices echoing between the dark shafts. ''Sam?'' There was no answer; a flashlight revealed nothing below.

    Our search became tinged with strangeness as disbelief gave way to the possibility that something might actually have happened to our friend. It was cold, and he had left the party without even a coat and with no money in his pockets. Desperation crept upon us with the dawn.

    There are so many ways to disappear in Manhattan.

    This year alone, 7,000 have gone missing in New York City. And last year the entire city experienced what we went through in 1984 on a much smaller and more private scale. Eighteen years ago we were the sole urchins plastering the streetlights with missing person signs, scouring soup kitchens, Dumpsters and alleys.

    His brother Adam was convinced that Sam would show up at a shelter, just like the one he had volunteered at in New Haven, where he was a student at Yale Divinity School. We haunted the lines of homeless men, looking for Sam's face, showing them his picture. They knew nothing.

    We left the door of our loft unlocked, just in case Sam found his way back. Then the press and the police began to take seriously what we'd been saying for three days, and a missing divinity student who'd been slumming it downtown when he vanished became news. A hot line was set up, and volunteers were organized to search the streets day and night. We were questioned delicately, resolutely investigated, and found guilty only of taking life too lightly.

    Sam's being missing ate away at our collective spirits. The police dragged the rivers, then waited for spring. We continued checking out soup kitchens, homeless shelters, the Bowery. The newspapers said that 14,000 missing-person fliers had been disseminated around the city. Our hearts gave out long before our feet.

    It looks so easy on television, when they solve mysteries in 50 minutes with time out for sponsors and a snack break. But for those of us who know the meaning of the term ''without a trace,'' there are no spots for advertisers, only a bitter realization that finally leads to despair.

    If a character on television really vanished ''without a trace,'' there would be no forensic clue, no video surveillance camera, no strip of cloth or footprint or strand of hair to indicate the whereabouts of that lost individual. There would be nothing left to provide even an inkling of an idea as to what happened. Nothing.

    That is reality.

    Technology has taken us beyond the realm where we once were. It can solve riddles that would have baffled the likes of Sherlock Holmes, but there are still mysteries that not even experts can explain away, not in an hour, not in a week, not in 18 years.

    Sometime it's hard to believe that it happened. And sometimes it is hard to forget.

    In 1984, the year of Sam's disappearance, I had a recurring dream. In it, he called from the pay phone outside our loft, and when I went to my bedroom window to look down at him, he laughed and ran away.

    THE dream was so real that many nights I followed his ghost down the street, past where Broadway Bob slept on his grate with a bottle of bourbon, his antenna nodding in the wind. I don't know if I was trying to find Sam or simply trying to disappear myself, but no hole opened to swallow me up, and eventually the haunting subsided along with my dreams. It reappears now and again, in my writings, like a hyperlink to Sam's face on the Internet.

    Other young men have gone missing on New Year's Eve, and sometimes I wonder if there isn't someone out there picking off boys giddy with their own futures and rendering them to the unknown. We each have our own theories. Did Sam fall into the Hudson River, or, looking for shelter from the cold, did he step into a doorway that was an open elevator shaft? Did he stop to help one of the chronically mentally ill homeless, who had been released from Bellevue to live on our streets and then was mugged . . . murdered?


    The disappearance of Sam Todd from our lives is a Zen koan, if you will.

    There is an awkward kind of serenity in knowing that some mysteries are not meant to be solved, some things are forever unknowable and with them must come an acceptance of their void. I look into that question, that koan, of Sam's disappearance and try to embrace the unexplainable. But with the advent of New Year's Eve 2002, enlightenment seems far away.

    Heather Dune Macadam is the author of ''The Weeping Buddha


     
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    https://www.nytimes.com/1984/03/10/opinion/the-search-for-sam-todd.html

    Archives | 1984
    The Search For Sam Todd
    By SYDNEY H. SCHANBERG

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    It is to be expected that in a city as dense and complex as New York there will always be unsolved mysteries, but none in ecent years has been any more unexpected or baffling than the disappearance of Samuel Todd, the 24-year-old Yale Divinity School student who fell from sight in the early morning hours of New Year's Day.

    Described by friends and family as quiet and gentle and ''particularly solid and stable,'' he did not fit the profile of someone who might suddenly run off and go into hiding.

    The police believe that because there has been no negative information or evidence, ''there's a good likelihood he's alive.'' But finding him is a tortuous process, full of psychic shoals.

    ''We try not to put too much emotional investment into every report of a possible sighting,'' said Adam Todd, 22, one of his three brothers. ''We're afraid to be disappointed.''

    Nonetheless the search has been one of the most intensive and dedicated in memory here. For what distinguishes the Todd case is the network of family and friends who combed the city for him in the early weeks (some still do) and who are now spreading the hunt nationwide.

    Most recently, all the policemen involved in the successful drug sweep on the Lower East Side were alerted to the details of the case, because that area borders the neighborhood where Samuel Todd disappeared.
    Thousands of fliers have been posted around the city bearing photographs of Samuel as well as a physical description (5 feet 11 inches, slim, 135 pounds, light brown hair, blue eyes, dark frame glasses). Yale Divinity students and other friends are still coming in on weekends to replace the posters where they've been taken down and continue the search for information.

    ''The Todd case is different,'' says Lieut. George Greenberg, head of the Missing Persons Squad, ''because of his different social stratum, being a divinity student at Yale. Most of the cases we handle are kids from broken homes, and they usually return home within 48 to 72 hours.'' This overworked police unit is still pressing hard on the case, though there are no strong leads.


    It happened around 2 A.M. on New Year's Day after a night of holiday partying and drinking with his brother Adam and six of his friends from his undergraduate days at Vassar. At their third stop, a party in a second-story loft on Mulberry Street, Samuel told his brother he had drunk too much and his head was spinning.

    He went down to the street to get some air, shrugged off Adam's offer to join him and was last seen by his brother as he began jogging the half-block toward Hudson Street. He never returned.

    Samuel was an avid runner, keeping in shape with regular jogging. He was also an accomplished jazz drummer. More centrally, he was concerned about peace issues and urban problems and was committed to helping the poor; he had worked in a soup kitchen and a food pantry in New Haven. He was soon to be ordained as a Presbyterian minister, his father's vocation. One hopes that knowledge of these pieces of his character may help someone find him.

    It is not unusual in such cases for people with clues to hang back for a variety of reasons, including a wish to avoid public attention or the police. A cab driver who saw then-6-year-old Etan Patz on the day of his abduction in 1979 didn't come forward until late 1982 to report the incident because ''I had problems of my own. I didn't want to get involved.'' The boy is still missing.

    The Todd family has limited means, but with the help of friends they are offering a $5,000 reward for news about Samuel. Anyone with any information at all should call the missing persons number: 374-6913.


    Fresh posters and search materials have been sent by the Todds to friends and church associates in major cities around the country in an effort to keep the hunt from flagging.

    This effort has turned up a possible sighting in the San Francisco area - where Samuel spent the summer a couple of years ago. A Berkeley woman who came across the poster in February reported that a young man who seemed to fit Samuel's description had been in her Presbyterian church in the middle of January. The police there have been asked to look into it. The family, meanwhile, tries to keep its spirits up. Adam, a paralegal employee in a law firm here, says he believes that what happened to his brother was ''something bizarre in a positive sense - such as flipping out or breaking down or becoming confused, as a result of someone mugging him or pulling a knife on him.''

    ''He was a pretty sensitive person,'' Adam went on. ''He believed strongly in universal salvation, that everybody has a good side, that everybody will be saved.'' Adam stressed, however, that Samuel was not naive. ''We lived for a time in East Harlem. He had been mugged before.''

    It would be nice - rather wonderful in fact - if Samuel's faith in human nature were rewarded by someone coming forward with information now. Remember the telephone number: 374-6913.

     
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