Much like in the Murdaugh case where he killed because his world built in lies, was being exposed. Backed into a corner with the lies.
The State's version was that Alex was trying to buy time and sympathy with the loss but I personally think it was money oriented as much or more so, but either way, that's what I think he felt it would accomplish. What is it that this 19 year old girl thought this would accomplish? IF of course she thought at all. I guess just age range to me makes them far different but all I can think of is in her mind, dad was easier and without mom she could live at home, rule the roost, do as she pleased. That is JUST my best guess and I certainly have no basis for it.
Also Alex wasl backed into a corner with lies and facing CRIMES, she simply was not in school although I do get at that age and with pressure it can maybe seem like the end of the world. A cast iron skillet. AND a knife. Videos were edited etc. for the public etc. for good reason I gather as it was that bad. This girl either lacks total human emotion or she had some kind of break no?
And yet I don't tend to think that in any case. I tend to think the opposite that no matter how bad, what issues, what mental health, etc., they still make a choice and did what they did and are guilty. I guess when it boils down, I think that here or I will with time to have it settle. I keep thinking it is someone that totally lacks impulse control at minimum. She is in a rage or fear or upset and she acts. BUT to listen to her history or from those that knew here, there seems to be no evidence of that....
I have seen and known people who can out of the blue fly at someone and be as nasty as all get out over nothing and ten minutes later while you are still reeling and uspet act like nothing happened and ask you if you'd like a piece of pie. That's a flat out made up example but to explain what I mean that would explain it in a nutshell, something similar to that. You weren't upset, all was fine, and out of the blue here the other person goes. You were not angry but now you are and they are just fine after out of the blue doing that when YOU were just fine. I almost think of it as no big deal to them, they think it okay and raged and now they are fine and wondering why you are now upset when you weren't anything but having a fine day. I have SEEN that in life. BUT NONE of what I have ever seen includes MURDER. That's an entirely different step and situation. NOR have I seen what I am talking about ever include anything physical towards another person.
I am not as certain here as I am in most cases of my opinion but I'd have to lean towards she is guilty and her remorse and tears are not genuine. I haven't seen enough but what I have seen I half believe and that alone shows me it is likely crafted or it is for herself. She DID seem upset on her dad's behalf etc. when he was on the stand but I found the deep breaths a bit put on I felt. They are a way to try t calm oneself but they are also a way to put on and if I have it right, there is a mental defense here? And it could seem like a coping mechanism she has been taught... I don't know...
I have a meter in my head. Think of a round thermometer or scale. Zero is at the top and as I learn things in a case I start at zero and then as I learn more it tips right towards guilty or left towards definitely not... I was at zero when knowing nothing about it and for a lot of the day but it is now tilted right. But also think of 100 (which I picture at both ends) as the worst of the worst, definitely had intent, will harm anyone in their way, etc. or kill anyone they feel like... I'm tilting right but I'm not sure how far, she could be a 100 and she could be a 5 and will and would never do such a thing again...She may so regret this and wish for her mom and she may not have a remorseful bone in her body...
if she is a fake she is better by far than the older ones who should be wiser at faking like Letecia Stauch... And that thought makes me feel she may just have had some kind of snap or break but you all know me and I don't typically buy that.
But then to WAFFLE back to the normal side for me, she paid cash, stayed in a hotel, hid this from her parents. I can't see what it would fix to kill her mother BUT then I have to remember that kids or young adults do not think about the future or big picture quite often PAST the current moment....
Again I don't know enough but what I have seen gives me the feeling mom was the disciplinarian, the family leader, etc. and if she had issues it was with mom and maybe in her head with mom gone, life would be rosy and easy.... She'd sit on her arse and dad would work and buy ice cream?
I feel for her dad, you could see his heartbreak. However, I also had to wonder if she knew her sobs and heaves would get to him...
Forgive me, I am kind of just talking this out for myself to see where I stand and what I think as I go... And I guess the bottom line is she brutally beat and killed and stabbed her mother. She is guilty. She may have been young but she IS guilty. She crossed a line and not just one instant of hitting her or something but over and over and over again. That IS the bottom line isn't it? It is. And tried to lie and cover. Yeah, that is the bottom line. I just had to get there. She didn't just cross a line almost no one would cross, she did it over and over and over again. So I'm there, she is guilty.
BUT at the back of my head, even saying that, had she ever grabbed a knife, frying pan, anything before to assault mom, dad her brother? one would think so but there seems to be no evidence of a thing prior.
Okay I have to stop because I thought I was there and then I came back around and will keep doing so I guess.
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